"And this is the confidence (the assurance, the privilege of boldness) which we have in Him: [we are sure] that if we ask anything (make any request) according to His will (in agreement with His own plan), He listens to and hears us" 1 John 5:14 My young girl was dying of a rare disease.She was barely 15 months old and she was dying slowly right in front of my eyes. I was totally helpless, angry and frustrated.The best medical experts in the field had given up hopes.My daughter was not responding to the treatment and the worst part was that the medicines were producing severe side effects.The baby was not able to tolerate the agonising pains caused by the side-effects of the treatment. Cure was not in sight and Doctor's bills was mounting.During one of the visits I asked the doctor bluntly "Is my daughter going to die ? I need to know" Knowing my distress the doctor replied gently "Her white blood cell count is the lowest ever known.Her body is not producing those cells.I cant give you a miracle.There are no guarantees in life.God has placed you in this position.I am sorry." I could hardly keep my anger out of my voice."Well if God has placed me here, he can also get me out.I'm begining to believe he likes to see people suffer, humbled and dependent.I think I've had enough of such a God." On reaching home I yelled at God "Okay God,so what's the deal? I know I believe and have faith in you. I have prayed.Our church has prayed.The elders have laid hands and prayed.We've studied your word,believed in your promises and awaited your timing.What do you want ? why dont you heal my baby ? No answer came. If my silent God has deserted me,where else was I to turn ? In utter despondency I cried bitterly.Then suddenly my eyes fell on an open Bible and certain verses in Genesis 22 came into view.Verses from 22: 2 onwards read as follows "And he said "Take now thy son, whom thou lovest, and go into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will show you." I knew then with absolute certainity that God was asking for my daughter.My mind was suddenly clear as never before, and I realised that I had been placing my love for my little girl above my love for God.I had been asking for my will.My will only.Not God's.I had been manipulating God and I'd been doing all the "right things" so he would be required to answer my prayers.I realised that only total submission to God's sovereign will would do. Mentally I constructed a sacrificial altar and offered my only child to God saying "O my Lord,I place my trust in you.If you are going to take my child, take her.Forgive me Lord for my lack of trust and obedience.I dont understand why you allowed these troubles, but I do love and trust you. Help me in the time ahead." A profound peace filled me.I would rest in the perfect will of God for my life.I let go off all my anger and fear. Six weeks later I took my daughter for a check-up.My daughter had not been ill during those six weeks. She was bright and energetic.The doctor was amazed "I'v never seen anything like this.Your child's white blood cell count is absolutely normal.This is impossible.It could'nt have changed so quickly." But it had.And in my heart I knew why.As Isaac had been returned to Abraham,so had my little girl been returned to me.My Lord was the Great Physician and a Father to be trusted ! What about you ? Are you going through severe trials ? And God seems to be so distant and cold.Your repeated prayers are not getting answered ? Do not be anxious.Just relax and trust in God.He really cares for you.Luke 6:32 says ".....your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things." and again in Luke 7:11 "If you then who are evil,know how to give good gifts to your children,how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask him." Sometimes God delays.But all for a good purpose.He knows best.He will never allow the boat to sink.Just remind God,trust in him.relax and wait it out with confidence.You work hard and do your best and God will do the rest.You need not pray feverishly or anxiously, just surrender all your anxieties and worries to God with trust and He will take care.God is bigger than your problems or your enemies. God Bless |
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